thought post: you don't have to have it together all the time
This post is dedicated to all the strong, independent girls out there, who are brave enough to admit their fears and weaknesses but bottles up their feelings (well, most of the time anyway).
"You're only human. You don't have to have it together every minute of every day." - Emma to Liv in Bride Wars
I know you and I only human too, but we can't help bottling up our feelings most of the time. Those like us will understand how vulnerable it feels to have all your feelings in the open for people to see and know. It's probably due to us opening up before and getting hurt right back, or maybe just getting hurt by someone we love.
We build up walls, strong concrete ones and yet we secretly hope that someone is daring enough to come break them down while not giving up on us. Our walls build up fairly quickly despite being broken down especially when we are hurt.
We push people away because we are unable to accept the idea of "attachment" and "forever". Yet we secretly hope that someone truly accepts us for who we are (strong, independent and yet vulnerable) and will stick with us in times to come.
We're complicated aren't we? We can't seem to explain ourselves to others and yet we understand ourselves and why we are wired this way. We cry on the inside so that no one knows.
Sometimes, we open up and pour out our feelings (well, whatever we are comfortable with sharing anyway). The occasional shot helps us to get there as well. Yet we can't seem to pour them all out. Maybe we are afraid of being judged? "The once strong mighty lion has fallen from its throne." - maybe that's what they think.
We know that people are always here for us, waiting for us to open up anytime and we're really, really, thankful for them. These people stay by you and understand why you react in a certain manner in a certain way. These people have most probably seen you cry a few times before (pretty sure someone popped in your head).
To the girls like us, you don't have to have it together all the time. You don't have to be perfect all the time. It's okay to let go sometimes - we strong girls have each other, all the way.